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I Said I Loved You But I Didn't Mean It

by Becky Stark

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1.
Car Song 03:08
I pull the car over it shutters and stops, I tell you to get out you tell me to fuck off Put the car in reverse, twenty miles down the road they'll sell us all the gas that your stomach can hold I sent you a message to stop the recording the mics are exploding you'll ruin your hearing The shops are closed down and the doorways are hollow you reah to recover the light that I've swallowed And I've never walked through the desert but I imagine that it's impossible And I haven't yet gotten over you but I imagine that its not the end of the world if I don't You went to Seattle before I could stop you, the birds will be buried I hope that they dropped you Its cold in Virginia but wait till tomorrow a million red hornets will drown in your sorrow It's frustrating yeah and it's a miracle we haven't got down on our knees, started begging for peace I pull the car over it stops and recedes from the place you have marked with the back of your knees The Chevy broke down halfway through Mexico and the truckers won't take us where we need to go I've never walked through the desert but I imagine that it's impossible And I don't know when I'll stop loving you, maybe I never will
2.
Cadillac 02:47
Dollar up in the back of your grandpa's Cadillac Straighten up watch the peaks of our breath fall individually It's been so long since we've gone for a ride I've forgotten how to act, I've forgotten how to act On November 17th back in 1963 we left class with our coats and our hats The brown leaves were deep on 113th St. but we didn't care about that And as Kruschev drove by, just a man in a trench coat We clapped or hands and waved little American flags Take me back to the past between blue and the black, take me back to your grandpa's Cadillac Just a kid, just a hack from alongside the tracks Takes a breath, takes a step, takes the train out of Ypsilanti and It's been so long since he's been on his own he's forgotten how to act, he's forgotten how to act And the train pulls away and it moves through the country we clap our hands and wave little American flags Take me back to the past between blue and the black take me back to your grandpa's Cadillac
3.
Spencer 03:00
Hey Spencer I got your letter It sounds like you're a man at war You liked the climb you'll like the fall even better It sounds like you've seen this before I try to bring to mind the times that I've stood bravely in good company And Spencer I don't ever want to see you cry although she's brought you to your knees Remember what you looked like last time when the earth left the sky The land's flat again, and all the people you knew are back again The earth hits the sea again and all the continents fit together again You knew the train was coming but you sat down anyway I wish that you could see your face A close approximation for the Great Salt Lake We'll melt you down, we'll fill the basin Remember what you looked like last time pinned up against the sky The land's flat again, and all the people you knew are back again The earth hits the sea again and all the continents fit together again There's no love in Utah So don't go looking
4.
El Centro 02:55
When it rains in El Centro the water is flowing like wine The trees by the stream well I don't know their names but they're starting to open their eyes When it's spring in El Centro the desert comes out like a dream The salt water flats where the mountains have crossed them are coming apart at the seams And I know you spend most of your time on the coast but next time you get leave why not start heading east and drive straight through the center of me Things are great in El Centro you don't know how lucky you are The truck that I bought down at Hennesy's lot hasn't moved since I parked it last year and I wish you were here Because I have felt lost too and I've felt defeated, I've felt deserted and I have felt needed I said I loved you but I didn't mean it I said I loved you but I didn't mean it And I know you spend most of your time on the coast but next time you get leave why not start heading east and drive straight through the center of me Take it straight through the center of me
5.
No Other Man 03:16
Been alone for a couple of months at the start of the year, didn't suit me like it should I've tried stairs chairs cigarettes magazines stars and radio studio city scenes Nothing seems to do me any good Take you down to a room at the floor in the back of the house, back you up against the wall Don't slow it down in the time before we fall, we got time before we fall, we got time before we fall I don't want to be loved by no other man I don't want to be loved by no other man who just won't understand I need you to be close to the place where the pain's gonna come, keep me up and on my feet There's a sound here that's erasing my memory, strange to think that it comes from inside of me Breaks the bones of everyone I meet It's a shame that it's over before we had something to show for it, and you swear that it ain't true But it's so clear to me when you tell me like you do that you love me like you do, you're so helpless when you do I don't want to be loved by no other man I don't want to be loved by no other man who just won't understand
6.
The Kids 03:24

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This album was recorded in Hyde Park in January 2005 by Loren Jan Wilson, and mixed and mastered by Loren Jan Wilson. I am so grateful to Loren and to the sweet folks who lent their very large musical talents to turn these songs into something cool.

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released November 10, 2023

Guitar, voice, banjo, and electric piano - Becky Stark
Percussion, synthesizer, twelve string guitar, bass, electric piano, and everything else - Loren Jan Wilson
Cello - Deirdre Loughridge
Violin - Carlos Villarreal
Backing vocals - Sarah Stark

Album Art - Becky Stark

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The Midwest's own Becky Stark. Previously of First Coat and Los Chupacabras, and current member of Kitchen Table Illinois. Home grown songs from Harvard, IL.

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